5 years ago I arrived in Portugal. Before that I was living in Amsterdam, feeling stuck between four walls, longing for nature, expansion, silence and healing. A place for myself to practice and work on personal projects, creativity, and business. I had about 10K left in savings, and lost my job at the time in a gym because of another covid lockdown. Jobless, I was eligible for social money, but I would have to abide by all kinds of rules, apply for any job, and immerse mysel

For many years I thought I needed to become part of a lineage and find one guru. I had picked up the idea that one has to stick to a single method of teaching at some point, otherwise you end up burying different holes but never find water. And so I was always visiting schools, meeting teachers, diving into scriptures, looking for my final station, where I would continue to study and drop all else. It was impossible. I was finding so much insight in different traditions, so m

Half a year ago I met a woman who made my energies dance and touched my heart deeply. A living initiatress. I just came out of meditation retreat, and felt complete within my own presence, in no need to connect with someone. And then of course, I met someone. I knew it as soon as I met her. I observed myself asking her out within 2 minutes of talking. The time that followed we danced a beautiful dance of polarity, of masculine and feminine, of Shiva and Shakti, of presence an